Finally got rid of the [9 Months] entry!!
2004-02-04@11:13 p.m.
Why can't I help but feel like everything is about to end?
It feels like the band is about to fall to peices. I'm scared. We just got our feet off the ground and now it feels like it's all going to end.
Everyone seems so negative and/or indifferent towards anything dealing with the band. You guys obviously don't see what I see.
We've got what it takes. I beleive that ALL of us can make it happen. I want it to happen. I can't see myself doing anything else but this for the rest of my life.
"Get your head out of the clouds," or "Be realistic," are probably things most of you are thinking right now, but I AM being realistic. We can do this, and I really want to!
Practices start again tomorrow. THANK GOD!! I missed it so much. Just being with those guys and having FUN!! I never see Will, Drew, or Kyle anymore. They're all in different bands and different grades than I am. It sucks not seein some of your best friends for long periods of time. At least I got Brady.
Becoming friends with these guys and becoming a part of the band have two of the greatest things to ever happen to me. They're all awesome people with their own strengths and weaknesses. I'm glad I could know them.
This has been a pretty emotional entry. Kinda funny that it's my first entry with this layout, huh? And no, I swear I didn't plan it this way.
L8er,
Jacob